The Basic Details

My name is Jessica. I was born on October 4th, and I currently reside in Southern Illinois with my mom and our dog, Colby. I am currently in the process of going back to university, SIUC to be precise, to obtain my BA in Psychology. Afterward, I am hoping to pursue a degree in Child and Adolescent Psychology with an emphasis on Sports Medicine. However, I am not 100% sure where I will be attending.

Despite what I mentioned in the blockquote above, English and Literature are one of my passions. I feel that the ability to write and express yourself is something that should be appreciated, and I think that the art of writing is slowly becoming a lost practice. I will admit that I do not spend as much time as I could on my handwriting. If you would like to help me with this, or if you feel the same, then click here to learn more.

I graduated from Du Quoin High School in June 1999. Go Indians! During my four years at DHS, I was a member of Spanish Club, LifeSavers, Pep Club, Media Club, and a writer for the school newspaper – The Magnavox. I was not the best student, and I nearly dropped out during my Sophomore year due to some problems at home. However, despite the fact that I had several bad moments in high school, I can now admit that I am a better person because of everything that happened. While in High School, I was selected as Most Unforgettable – and I am still not sure if it was a compliment or an insult. Upon graduating from DHS, I began my long journey of getting a post-secondary education – a journey that is still in progress.

By this point, I guess that I should tell you why I blog, why I am constantly trying to create a website. Blogging allows me to express my thoughts and feelings in a safe, non-destructive manner. This is especially important to me, as I have seriously considered more destructive manners such as suicide. I will admit that at times the commenting part of owning a blog, the thought of having perfect strangers judge me and know my innermost thoughts and feelings, makes me a bit more like the shy, insecure girl that I was back in High School. Despite this fact, I still find it a lot easier to express myself in blog posts than I do in real life. At times, I would have to say that I am definitely more confident online, more of the person that I am on the inside. I am hoping that owning a blog, owning a website, will provide me with a sort of sanctuary, a place where I can finally discover who the girl in the mirror truly is…who I am truly meant to be.

I have learned that dwelling in the past is not the best of ways to make improvements in your life, and that at the end of it all, no one is going to care if I did ——- when I was younger. Most people only care about how you are living your life at the current moment, and I do not have a criminal record – so it doesn’t really matter what happened 5 years ago, or even 15 years ago. It doesn’t matter because I am no longer the same person, I am a lot more mature than I was at that time and becoming wiser with every moment.

I am beginning to learn that it is okay to be goofy, to do fun things, to act like a child every once in a while. However, I also believe that there is an appropriate time and place for every activity and action, and every reaction. Sometimes the secret knowledge that you are wearing sexy lingerie or a pair of mismatched socks can be enough to help you through a difficult situation. After years of blending into the background, I am beginning to realize the benefits of standing out. Despite this, I still feel most comfortable with my crazy side safely hidden.

Unlike most girls. I am not that picky of an eater. I definitely prefer to eat healthy and to make choices that are beneficial to both myself and the world around me. I would love to become a vegan – but I live in an area that is not exactly supportive of alternative lifestyles. As a friend of mine once told me, We eat beef around here. However, despite this fact, I definitely prefer chicken and fish over beef and pork. I also prefer fresh produce over canned – Canned seems to have a metallic-taste but it may be just me. Frozen produce is definitely preferable over canned, and sometimes it is the only type available. I have cut down my consumption of soda drastically, but sometimes I get a craving for a vanilla Dr Pepper. Junk food – in the form of chocolate and ice cream – is something that I will probably never quit eating. As Erma Bombeck said, Seize the moment. Remember all those women on the Titanic who waved off the dessert cart. Despite all of this, I maintain a semi-regular food journal and try to make healthy choices.

I currently do not have a job, but I am looking for one. I promise that I am not one of those “housing ho’s.” I have worked at the senior center in my hometown, at one of the child care centers, at Dairy Queen, at MBH, and as an Avon representative. I would love to be an Avon/mark representative once again, as I really enjoyed it and I did not plan properly when I first sold the products. I also spend time volunteering at the library in my hometown. So, despite the fact that I am the owner of this website, I do not spend all of my time on the Internet.

I love learning about other people, their lives, and their cultures. I feel that being a part of a variety of social networks and being a blogger has helped me expand my knowledge of not only myself but the world around me.

I have a tendency to speak without thinking, and a tendency to seem totally random. I promise that although I may not make perfect sense at all times, what I am trying to express will become clearer. It seems that my brain works quicker than I can talk or write. In the past, I used to try to get everything out and I had a tendency to be misunderstood. I know now to speak with confidence, and that people will either listen or not.

I am constantly writing things down – everything from websites to visit to ideas for blog entries. As a result of this, I tend to go through notebooks, paper, rather quickly – much to my Mom’s disgust.

This about me is a bit longer than I had originally intended, as like many other people, I am not very comfortable talking or writing about myself. I am also never quite sure how much information that I should give. How much information is needed to spark an interest? I still do not know, and I do not think that I ever truly will. If you are truly interested in learning more about me, I suggest that you read my blog entries.

In Summary

Nicknames: Jessie, Jess, Mouse

Birthday: October 4

Religion: Christian – Other

Favorite Colors: Navy Blue, Pink, Ivory, Tiffany Blue, Heather Gray, Black

Favorite Patterns: Plaid, Polka Dots

Favorite Online Games: It Girl, Neopets

Favorite Offline Games: Rummy, Board Games, Super Mario Bros., Sonic the Hedgehog, Final Fantasy, The Legend of Dragooon, The Sims 3

Likes: Writing Poems, Writing Short Stories, Writing Songs, Watching Criminal Minds, Watching Family Guy, Listening to Music, Posting on Forums, Sending/receiving Letters and Cards, Learning New Things, Joining Forums, Logic Puzzles, Having PenPals, Kittens, Puppies, Panthers, Ben & Jerry’s New York Super Fudge Chunk, Sleeping In, Bubble Baths

Dislikes: Pickles, Discrimination of any kind, Ignorance, Being ignored, Cancer, Child Abuse